I’m an 18 year old girl and until now I’ve talked to a numerous amount of guys but I’ve never been hurt nor have I been so depressed and heart broken until today..Me and my ex-boyfriend met on myspace about 3 years ago..at first i honestly thought he was so random and I was just talking to him out of boredom, we were nothing alike btw this was a long distance relationship I live in California and he lives in Nevada..We talked as friends in the beginning and I never looked at him in any other way..after about a month he told me he likes me and I was honest with him and told him that I didn’t but I eventually started developing feelings for him..may I add I never saw him in person until recently..anyways as every couple does we started having arguments which would cause us to stop talking so it was an on n off phone relationship..after a year of knowing one another (while we were on
good terms) he told me he loved me I was honestly shocked but I didn’t tell him I love him because that would be a lie..after that we talked on and off for another year..and this is where it all started..after we got into a huge argument (he would always accuse me of lying) we stopes talking for a good 4 months and I guess he was tierd of always being the one to call and make up after our arguments, so this time he didn’t,sure I was seeing other guys but then I randomly started to miss him, so I decided to text him basically an apology..he gladly accepted it and told me he missed me but then again when I had him back I started doing stupid things again.. I would go out with other guys and lie to him about the stupidest things and I just wouldn’t treat him the right way buy may I add that he was very jealous and controlling he wouldn’t even let me go to my friends houses..anyways we fought one last time but this time was bad because I was and still am crazy in love with him..I saw him about 3 weeks ago for the first time after 3 years and I lost my virginity to him (which was a very big thing for me) after that everything was perfect for a goodweek until the arguments started again..he would always go out with his friends and he just quit his job which gave him even more spare time to see his friends..anyways he would go out with them and forget about me always accuse ke of talking to other guys and never believe me..I mean I know I kind of made him like that but I honestly changed i stopped talking to all my guy friends I changed a lot for him..I really love him a lot I can’t be without him..but he broke up with me for “lying” I begged him so much soooo much to give me one last chance I told him I would listen to everything he told me to do I would do anything for him and all he said was I gave u too many chances before..I know he did but I wasn’t lying to him and I have no way of proving that to him but I honestly need him..we broke up 4 days ago and I can’t stop being depressed and I can’t stop crying everything reminds me of him I don’t even wanna get out of the house..but then today he called means when I asked y he said because he wanted to see how I was doing but he made me so bad and he kept saying stupid sarcastic things which really made me cry and I know he loves me because of before and I know he still does but why wouldn’t he get back with me? I mean I said sorry more than a million times and that I love him I mean it’s not like I cheated on him or anything he’s just assuming something I just want one chance to prove to him that I have changed for the better I just never used to listen to anything he would tell me but now I realized he was saying it for my own good..today while we were talking and I started crying he kept saying please don’t cry I know it bugged him to see me like that so whyyy not why wouldn’t he give me one more chance i’m just so crushed please give me some sort of advice pleaseeeee nd sorry if this was confusing i just have so much on my mind..thankkkk u muahhh.

Roscoe